Finding My Goddess
Smart, Sexy, Spiritual Goddess Desired for Awesome Relationship with Extraordinary Man
Are YOU a Woman Who Has the Extensive Qualifications?
Hi! I'm Mark. Thanks for visiting my website.
I am a deeply spiritual gentleman, who is looking for a true Goddess for life-long intimate relationship and awesome (but unconventional) marriage. She is HIGHLY intelligent, VERY beautiful/sexy, and DEEPLY spiritual.
And she is a Prostitute* or a former Prostitute. Actually, she is (or formerly was) a Sacred Prostitute—I define that term below.
I want a powerful, liberated woman. She is THRILLED by the prospect of the work she and I will do together as a couple to tear down the ridiculous belief that prostitution is "immoral" and to teach society that prostitution is instead a good thing (indeed a very good thing) that is greatly needed for the benefit of society. As discussed below, we will change the laws.** And we will teach Prostitutes to become Sacred Prostitutes.
I am well aware that some people prefer the term "sex worker" rather than Prostitute, perhaps because they perceive "sex worker" as having fewer negative connotations. I disagree. What has negative connotations worldwide is the exchange of sex for money, and it doesn't really matter whether you use say Prostitute, sex worker, whore, call girl, lady of the evening or sexual surrogate. As I explain below, the notion that paid sex is a bad thing is itself a bad thing, because prostitution is a GOOD thing. I use the term Prostitute to emphasize this, and I capitalize the "P" to honor these wonderful ladies.
I am willing offer my wonderful lady an allowance of $1,000 per month for her time and companionship, and for her working with me in this noble educational effort. (No part whatsoever of the $1,000 per month will be in exchange for sex.* If sex happens, it will be freely given between mutually consenting adults and not for any money or consideration.) I realize that $1,000 per month is tiny compared to what she might be earning from her profession,* but so what? — She can keep earning all that money, plus expand her horizons intellectually and spiritually in her relationship with me. Moreover, the work we do together selling books and presenting lectures and workshops is anticipated to make a lot of money, of which she would receive an appropriate share. And if she marries me, then she will receive additional financial benefits.
Table of Contents for This Web Page
1. What Do I Mean by "Goddess" and
"Sacred Prostitute"?
2. Extensive Qualifications for the Goddess I Seek
2.1. Spirituality
2.2. Body
2.3. Mind
2.4. Social
2.5. Work/Vision
2.6. Sexuality
3. About Me
4. Geography
5. Surrender versus Control
6. My Upcoming Book: Resurrecting
the Innocence in Prostitutes
7. Our Work As a Couple to Make Prostitution
Legal** and Honorable
8. Replies
December 2009
1. What Do I Mean by "Goddess" and "Sacred Prostitute"?
To answer this question, I must first express some of my spiritual philosophy. I will repeatedly refer to the concept of a "spectrum."
Our civilization widely accepts that a distinction exists between the "material" and the "spiritual." At one extreme is the money-grubbing scoundrel, and at the other extreme is the humanitarian whose life is spent in selfless service. At one extreme is the person consumed with hatred, jealousy and greed, who constantly thinks about harming other people, and at the other extreme is the person whose mind is peaceful and quiet, and who unconditionally loves everyone. It is important to recognize that a vast spectrum exists between these extremes, and that ordinary people live somewhere within that spectrum. There are nearly seven billion people on this planet, and every part of the spectrum is well-populated.
The pressures of the world tend to pull people downward, toward the material side of the spectrum. The gentle call of God nudges people upward toward the spiritual side. God urges us to drop the material garbage and evolve upward—toward spiritual enlightenment.
Many people (and many religions) mistakenly view sex entirely from a material perspective. Consequently, many people with high spiritual aspirations mistakenly believe that celibacy is essential for attaining enlightenment. And for those who have relatively little interest in sex, the path of celibacy is just fine. But for intensely sexual people, celibacy is a path to emotional distress rather than joy.
The truth is that sex can be practiced in any part of the spectrum. At one extreme is sexual violence and rape. At the opposite extreme is sacred sex, which is the sexual worship of God.
So..... What do I mean by "Goddess" and "Sacred Prostitute"?
"Goddess" means a woman who is blossoming in many qualities of spiritual enlightenment AND is intensely sexual.
"Sacred Prostitute" means a Goddess who, as a profession, gives sexual blessings to her male clients to bring them closer to God and to help them evolve toward spiritual enlightenment.
Ancient Egyptian Goddess Isis
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2. Extensive Qualifications for the Goddess I Seek:
My intention here is twofold. First, I want to clearly describe the woman I am seeking. She need NOT meet 100% of my qualifications, but she meets MOST of them. Second, I would like to inspire EVERY woman who reads this message to become and be the very best woman she can be, regardless of whether she has been a Prostitute.
2.1. Spirituality:
Her spirituality is the CENTER of her life.
She believes in God, loves God, knows that God loves her, and knows that she herself is made in God's image (i.e. that she is an incarnation of God). She knows that the location where God resides is within her beautiful heart.
She receives guidance directly from God, and she follows this Spirit guidance, even when it takes courage to do so (e.g. because others might get angry or scared, or they might judge her as nuts or a "bad girl").
She prays daily.
She knows the truth of reincarnation. Alternatively, she is open to that concept and ready for experiences that will demonstrate its truth to her.
She engages in one or a combination of the following spiritual practices for a minimum of 30 minutes per week, and she has been doing so regularly for at least a year:
Meditating in sitting position with eyes closed. (See, e.g., Sahaj Samadhi Meditation, Transcendental Meditation, Siddha Yoga Meditation, Meditation as taught by Ammaji (the hugging saint), and Kriya Yoga Meditation.)
Chanting an ancient mantra aloud, such as "Nam Myoho Renge Kyo" or "Om Namah Shivaya" or "Hare Krishna."
Breath techniques taught by Sri Sri Ravi Shankar, including Sudarshan Kriya.
I would prefer someone who spends more like 1 or 2 hours per day on such practices (as I have been doing for 37 years), and I think 30 minutes per week is pretty minimal for a Goddess. The above-listed practices dig deep into the consciousness, clean out fear, anger, pain, hatred and other negatives, including from past lives, open the heart to blossom in unconditional love, dissolve the ego, and move the soul rapidly in the direction of spiritual enlightenment.
The following things can have great value, but do NOT count towards my 30-minutes-per-week minimum because they generally do not dig nearly as deep into the consciousness: reading scriptures (e.g. the Bible), spiritual books or spiritual articles; attendance at church, temple, study groups, religious meetings or spiritual lectures (or listening to recordings of the same); listening to sacred music; yoga postures (asanas); physical exercise; charitable work (seva); dietary cleansing; talk therapy, chiropractic, homeopathy, naturopathy, ayurveda, acupuncture, massage, light healing, astrology and feng shui.
She is NOT a Scientologist.
As a consequence of her regular spiritual practices (both in this lifetime and in past lives), she is blossoming in SOME (not necessarily all) the following qualities of enlightenment:
Her mind is frequently peaceful.
She does not have too many unwelcome thoughts, nor does she experience a lot of "mental chatter." Her mind is fairly quiet—for some of the time, anyway.
When she gets angry or hurt or sad or upset, it does not last too long—or, if it is lasting, she turns inward and works on herself until she finds peace again.
She seldom or never feels hatred, greed, jealousy or the desire to harm someone.
She sees God in many people—or in all people—even when they are denying their own divinity by engaging in evil.
She loves others unconditionally, meaning that even if they impose a "condition" of rejecting or betraying or harming her, she keeps loving them anyway—her mature love cannot sour into hatred.
She unconditionally loves a large number of people—or all people—however, she loves different people with different levels of intensity.
She has the quality of childlike Innocence, even though she has been a Prostitute.* If she "lost" her Innocence at some time in her life, she has subsequently regained it. As discussed below, I am writing a book entitled, Resurrecting the Innocence in Prostitutes.
2.2. Body:
She is hot, sexy and beautiful.
She has excellent posture.
She has a trim waistline.
Her hair is her own and falls below her shoulders.
She is beautifully dressed and beautifully groomed.
She is in excellent health, although she may have some minor health issues she is working on.
She is tobacco free and drug free. She is either alcohol free or nearly so.
Her voice is not low or raspy. (This is usually caused by smoking over a long period of time. I can hear the years of smoking in a woman's voice.)
She is either a vegetarian, or she would like to be one if she could do so without it adversely impacting her energy or health.
Her home is clean, orderly and uncluttered. However, if she has children living with her, messes caused by her kids are okay.
2.3. Mind:
She is mentally healthy, and her mental health is strongly supported by her spiritual practices. She is free from psychiatry, mental disorders and psych meds. Note: feeling some unhappiness because she has not yet been united with the man of her dreams is NOT a mental disorder!
She is extremely intelligent and creative.
She is well educated, with at least a bachelor's degree. Alternatively, she has the intellectual/academic ability, skills and experience of someone with a bachelor's degree.
She is highly articulate.
She speaks English with advanced fluency.
She is BRAVE.
She is ready and willing to confront and let go of any and all self-limiting beliefs within her consciousness. She knows that breaking out of the "cage" of self-limiting beliefs can be difficult and sometimes painful, but she is undaunted. She wants TOTAL FREEDOM and has the courage to attain it. She wants a man who will HELP her attain it.
She has an open/flexible mind capable of embracing beautiful/powerful new concepts, both material and spiritual, that are "outside the box" of common thinking in today's heavily propagandized and "politically correct" society. Like uniting with a man who WANTS her to have been a Prostitute!* She is open to revolutionary new ideas for improving our society. She enjoys conversations about such things.
2.4. Social:
She is not married.
If she is a mother, then her children are at least 6 years old. If her kids are under 12, then she has no problem getting babysitters.
She is sophisticated.
She has excellent manners.
She is RELIABLE about phone calls and dates with me.
She LOVES classical music, including opera and ballet. She wants me to take her to LA Opera productions at the Dorothy Chandler Pavilion, to the Los Angeles Philharmonic concerts at Disney Hall and at the Hollywood Bowl (with picnic dinners), to Broadway musicals at the Ahmanson Theater and in Hollywood's Theater District, to concerts and theater at the Orange County Performing Arts Center, to art exhibitions, and to other classy arts events. She totally LOVES the idea of my taking her directly from these events to elegant hotels for enchanting, romantic, sizzling-hot nights!
She is confident, outgoing, and has excellent people skills. She is socially magnetic, gregarious, and people LOVE being with her.
If she has been victimized by an ex-boyfriend, ex-husband or male pimp who has been severely emotionally abusive, engaged violence or other crimes against her or other people, and/or abuses alcohol or drugs, then she must be 100% disconnected from him except for minimal contacts required to comply with a court order pursuant to children or financial support.
2.5. Work/Vision:
She has considerable experience as a Prostitute* providing sex for numerous and diverse men. She is either NOT ashamed of this work, or she is willing, with my help, to let go of the shame and reclaim her Innocence. If she has not yet learned how to be a Sacred Prostitute, then she would like me to teach her how to bless her clients as she works.*
She understands that prostitution is good and noble work. And she is willing to talk about her experiences with prostitution in public when we work together. See Part 7 below: Our Work As a Couple to Make Prostitution Legal** and Honorable.
As I stated above, it's OK with me for her to practice her work as a prostitute* when we are a couple. Including when we're married (if we get married). In fact, I want her to do so. However, I would prefer that she limit her client appointments* to the daytime and early evening, so we can be together at night.
She is deeply disturbed that each day approximately 16,000 children die from hunger-related causes... one such child dies every six seconds. She understands that the biggest problem in the world today (and the underlying cause of this and a myriad of other horrendous problems) is tyranny by a small band of elite individuals. Or, if she doesn't understand this yet, she is willing to educate herself about this very scary truth.
She QUESTIONS so-called "authority" and HATES the concept of "blind obedience to authority." She is appalled by the results of the famous Milgram Experiment in psychology which show that "normal" people will intentionally inflict what they believe is torture on another person simply because an "authority" figure instructed them to do so.
She understands that the elite tyrants have reached an advanced state in the systematic imposition of their so-called "authority" onto the population of the entire world, and that the goal of the tyrants is nothing short of enslaving the masses by means of (1) the "authority" of government officials who are puppets of the tyrants, and (2) marketplace, media and banking domination by corporate giants that are primarily controlled by the tyrants.
She is either an experienced actress or would like to be one. She is deeply interested in theater, film and television production, but is unhappy with the manner in which the media are controlled by the dark powers that substantially control the world today. She would be EXTREMELY interested in participating in creating an extraordinary new television show designed to change all that and that will be distributed in a manner that the tyrants cannot touch.
She has the COURAGE to unite with and give her full Goddess support to a powerful man (me) who dares to believe that tyranny can be eliminated from the face of this earth during our lifetime. As discussed below, I believe that making prostitution legal** and honorable is crucial for dethroning the tyrants and putting an end to the wars and other nightmares they constantly impose on this planet. She is INTENSELY interested in this noble cause, sees that she is in a position to make a huge contribution to it, and deeply desires to do so.
2.6. Sexuality:
She is PASSIONATE. Actually, she is INTENSELY passionate.... passionate about God, passionate about eliminating social injustice, passionate when speaking to audiences or on television, and passionate in bed with me.
She believes in the light-filled MAGIC of sacred sex, even if she hasn't yet experienced it. She wants to utilize this magic to manifest our vision to eliminate the taboos against prostitution.
She intensely longs to be worshipped as a Goddess by the right man—a man who knows EXACTLY what he is doing. He teases her hard and relentlessly, which makes her laugh uncontrollably. The sound of his voice, his words, his appearance, the way he looks at her, his powerful mind, his radiant heart, his intense sexuality, his confidence, his poise, and his very presence...... weaken her knees, fill her stomach with butterflies, send shivers up her spine, make her heart pound, overwhelm her with desire, and make her VERY wet. She cannot help but surrender herself to him, melting naked into his arms, whereupon he worships her as a Goddess...... he is the priest, she is his altar. She becomes the Goddess he is worshipping... she is elevated into extreme Goddess-ecstasy...... exploding and screaming!...... so many times you lose count.
The lady I seek somehow KNOWS deep down inside that if she surrenders herself to the right man and is worshipped as a True Goddess by him in just the right way, she can move mountains...... she can move the whole world! She WANTS to make this sexual magic happen and to bless the world with the resulting miracles.
Note: I have NO desire to control my Goddess. Please see my discussion in Part 5 below about Surrender versus Control.
Furthermore, she is interested in sacredly exploring FEMALE bisexuality as a Goddess, so that, by my simultaneously worshipping multiple Goddesses, we can greatly intensify the power of our sexual magic, thereby accelerating the manifestation of our dreams to move the world.
She is WILLING to surrender and be worshipped.
She is WANTING to surrender and be worshipped.
She is WAITING to surrender and be worshipped.
Hindu Goddess Laxmi
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3. About Me:
Gallant. INTENSELY romantic. Perfect gentleman.
6-1, 180, 60. Deep, calm, sexy voice (women LOVE my voice).
Extremely brilliant. Extremely creative. Well educated. Visionary. Renaissance Man. Wise.
Balls. Obviously—otherwise I could not have put up this website!
Happy, and able to remain happy even in the midst of stressful circumstances and disappointments. My happiness is infectious!
Hundreds of friends.
Deeply spiritual. Old soul. 38 years of daily meditation. 23 years of daily breath practices as taught by Sri Sri Ravi Shankar, who is my main spiritual teacher. Profound, two-way connection with God. I am guided by God in all that I do, day in and day out. Nonjudgmental. Advanced skills at emotional processing. I rarely get angry (perhaps 3 times per year and just for a few minutes, then it's gone). Extremely patient. Emotionally centered and grounded. Happy. Calm. Spending time with me will calm you down and make you feel peaceful inside. But I will also challenge you to expand and grow. I will challenge you to let the Goddess within you be fully expressed and manifested in the external world.
Extremely passionate tantra master who does not ejaculate (except on rare occasions). Stays fully hard through multiple male orgasms without ejaculating. Can and will genuinely DELIVER "so many times you lose count," as stated above. Vasectomy.
Extensive experience sexually worshipping Prostitutes* and transforming them, at least for a brief time, into Goddesses. Most Prostitutes rarely (if ever) have orgasms during sex with their clients, and they are astonished to receive powerful, multiple, full-body orgasms from a client (me). I make Prostitutes feel HAPPY and PROUD about the work they do, and I teach them to bless their clients. Many have fallen in love with me. Huge topic.
Divorced after 17-year marriage (never had sex with a Prostitute until after my divorce). I have three fabulous adult sons and golden relationships with each of them.
Born in Downtown Los Angeles. Raised in Pacific Palisades (part of Los Angeles). Graduated magna cum laude from UCLA. B.A. in Mathematics, minor in Music, plus a teaching credential. Also took extensive coursework in physics, chemistry, theater arts, education and business management.
Taught high school chemistry and mathematics for Los Angeles Unified Schools, and also twice started my own private schools.
Software engineer at Hughes Aircraft Company. Left Hughes after raising startup capital for a computer technology venture that is still in progress.
To pay the bills, I draft complex legal documents for numerous attorney clients. I do this legal work in the capacity of a spiritual missionary for the purpose of spreading Light within the legal system (which desperately needs Light). I never went to law school, but could readily pass the bar exam.
100% straight (i.e. heterosexual).
Tobacco free, alcohol free, drug free and disease free.
Clean, healthy, vegetarian (for over 30 years).
My home is clean and orderly, but I'm not very good at interior decorating!
I am intensely chivalrous, and, if you date me, I expect you to respond to my chivalry as a LADY. You are a GIRL. Chivalry is about you allowing me to HONOR your femininity.
There are three popular things are not a part of my life:
Rock music. It saps my energy and turns me off.
Television. I stopped watching TV in 1970. I dislike the energy of most of what gets broadcast. TV news is largely propaganda.
Pets. Physical contact with animals (especially dogs) drains my energy. And I never eat animals.
But I'm funny! I will make you laugh. Lots.
Sensitive, kind, caring and sweet.
High integrity.
Huge heart that loves unconditionally.
Extremely strong male energy but totally different from most men. Obviously!! I know EXACTLY what I want, and I intend to get it.
But vulnerable (e.g. I fall in love easily).
HEART OF GOLD.
