Finding My Goddess
Smart, Sexy, Spiritual Goddess Desired for Awesome Relationship with Extraordinary Man.
One Gentleman's Quest to Find His Goddess.
Are YOU a Woman Who Possesses
the Extensive Goddess-Qualifications?
December 2009
Hi. I'm Mark. Thanks for visiting my website.
I'm looking for a true Goddess for life-long intimate relationship and awesome (but unconventional) marriage. She is HIGHLY intelligent, VERY sexy, and DEEPLY spiritual.
Please accept my apology for the length of this message. There is really no way to condense it into a nutshell, so if it's too long for you, then we are not a match. I wish you the best of luck finding the relationship you want and deserve. I am seeking a woman who LOVES it that I have put so much thought into creating a fabulous, transcendent relationship... someone who ENJOYS reading my lengthy message!
In this message I state what I want, and I do it firmly, assertively, and quite seriously. But I am negotiable. If you are interested but have objections, please feel free to state your objections to me. Also, because my tone is so serious here, this website does not reveal my sense of humor. But if you get to know me, I will make you laugh and laugh and laugh! Seriously!
Speaking about objections, I must let you know in advance that there's a juicy twist to the relationship I seek. Many (but certainly not all) ladies will object to this. I'm looking for a lady who LOVES it!
To understand the juicy twist, you will need to read my E-Book. Click here to learn more about my E-Book. You may download Chapter One for free, and you may buy the entire E-Book for $9.99. This is an introductory price.
Table of Contents for the Remainder of This Page
1. My Global Vision
2. What Do I Mean by "Goddess"?
3. Extensive Qualifications for the Goddess I Seek
(Note: 100% is NOT required)
3.1. Spirituality
3.2. Body
3.3. Mind
3.4. Social
3.5. Work/Vision
3.6. Sexuality
4. About Me
5. Geography
6. Surrender versus Control
7. Status of this Website as of February 3, 2010
8. Replies from Interested Ladies
Some of the material in my message is controversial. My E-Book is VERY controversial. I do not wish to offend anyone, but I do need to say certain things so that an interested lady knows what she's getting into. I think that's reasonable and fair.
I realize that some ladies might perceive a "contradiction" between what I say on this web page and what I say in my E-Book. An interested lady will need to read my WHOLE E-Book to resolve it and to really "get" what I am saying. There is no contradiction. Just a juicy twist.
I'm a deeply spiritual man. As I explain in detail below (and in great detail in my E-Book), my guidance comes directly from God (or, as my Buddhist friends would say, from my Buddha Nature). I am well aware that you might think otherwise. As you read my message, you might conclude that I have an over-inflated ego and that, rather than following "divine guidance," I should instead work on "getting over myself"—and, indeed, given the expansiveness of my message, that would be a very "normal" reaction for you to have.
The Goddess I seek sees far beyond the "normal" level of thinking. She follows the guidance she receives from God (even when people might think she's crazy), and she believes that others (including me) should do the same. Her life is dedicated to making this world a better place, and she realizes that the "normal" way of thinking is precisely what has gotten this world into so much trouble! My message EXCITES her. She believes what I'm saying is coming from God. She believes what I'm saying is not only possible but doable. She passionately desires to be directly and intimately involved.
December 2009
1. My Global Vision
I am on the brink of a large-scale financial success that many people believe will escalate me, over the next decade, from member of the middle class—to billionaire. I am the inventor and developer of, and control the majority interest in, a patented new technology that numerous well-credentialed experts agree can, quite literally, re-define the entire computer industry. We anticipate our first product release in 2010, and then the computing paradigm will begin to shift.... people will start thinking about information and utilizing computers in a whole new way that greatly EMPOWERS them. This will shake the foundation of a nearly trillion-dollar industry (computer hardware, software and information technologies, including the Internet).
However, I am much more than a computer scientist. I am a Global Visionary, and my desire and intention is to utilize my anticipated computer fortune to create fundamental changes in the systems, institutions and traditions on this planet: from darkness to LIGHT. In contrast with my computer technology which is likely to succeed (at least to some significant degree), my broad global vision is a gigantic LONG SHOT. With God (and if my karma proves good enough), I will find some degree success with my huge vision. If not, I will at least have enjoyed the adventure of daring to go for it.
Why am I sharing this Global Vision with you? Because it tells you a whole lot about who I am. I am a man who DARES to dream the Impossible Dream, and who DARES to devote his life to realizing it. I am seeking a woman who LOVES my vision and WANTS to be my intimate partner in the adventure of going for it, whether we succeed or fail.
My Global Vision addresses and integrates a large number of disciplines. Its ultimate goal is to greatly reduce human suffering on planet Earth. It is deep, complex, and mind-boggling. Here is its title and table of contents:
The Political Manifestation of World Peace and World Joy — A Grand "Symphony" to Be Performed by the Light Workers of Planet Earth.
- Transformation of Computers and the Computer Industry into the LIGHT.
- Transformation of Science into the LIGHT.
- Transformation of Health Care into the LIGHT.
- Transformation of Business Management into the LIGHT.
- Transformation of Arts and Entertainment into the LIGHT.
- Transformation of Education into the LIGHT.
- Sexually Enlightened Religion, including Transformation of the Sex Industry into the LIGHT.
- Transformation of News Reporting into the LIGHT.
- Transformation of Agriculture, Food Production and Food Distribution into the LIGHT.
- Elimination of Hunger, Poverty and Homelessness.
- Destiny Support.
- Transformation of Prisons into the LIGHT.
- Transformation of the Insurance Industry into the LIGHT.
- Transformation of the Investment and Securities Industry into the LIGHT (the need for this has never been more compelling than right now with the crisis on Wall Street).
- Transformation of Taxation into the LIGHT.
- Transformation of Government Regulation of Industry into the LIGHT.
- Transformation of Money into the LIGHT.
- Transformation of Legal Systems into the LIGHT.
My Global Vision is written in the form of a prayer. It's a prayer for the large-scale GOOD of humanity. It's also a prayer for my own Destiny—for God to USE me to the maximum to serve that global GOOD. And it's a prayer for me to be united with a Goddess capable of sharing that Destiny with me.
Is my prayer too large or crazy or unanswerable?
I'm looking for someone who thinks not.
However, it is VERY appropriate for you to be skeptical. I seek a woman with a razor-sharp intellect who is well grounded in distinguishing material reality from the "stuff of dreams".... yet she ALSO knows it is the "stuff of dreams" that, with persistence, hard work, fervent prayer and Divine guidance, BECOMES the new material reality. She must be willing to look deeply, have an open/flexible mind, and have an intuition sufficiently keen to read the many "signs" that clearly indicate my computer technology work is long past the "pie in the sky" stage and is getting ever-so-close to material reality... a reality that will cause money to pour in from all over the world.
I seek spiritual (but unconventional) marriage with a true Goddess based on deep love, intense chemistry, extreme passion, and lifelong devotion. Additionally, marriage includes financial and legal dimensions, and the complexities of my Global Vision will necessitate a pre-nuptial agreement. I will be generous, giving the Goddess I seek 100% legal control over an appropriate portion of the anticipated wealth.
December 2009
2. What Do I Mean by "Goddess"?
To answer this question, I must first express some of my spiritual philosophy. I will repeatedly refer to the concept of a "spectrum."
Our civilization widely accepts that a distinction exists between the "material" and the "spiritual." On one extreme is the money-grubbing scoundrel, and on the other extreme is the humanitarian whose life is spent in selfless service. On one extreme is the person consumed with hatred, jealousy and greed, who constantly thinks about harming other people, and on the other extreme is the person whose mind is peaceful and quiet, and who unconditionally loves everyone. It is important to recognize that a vast spectrum exists between these extremes, and that ordinary people live somewhere within that spectrum... and they each evolve and change within some sub-range of that spectrum. There are six billion people on this planet, and every part of the spectrum is well populated.
The pressures of the world tend to pull people downward, toward the material side of the spectrum. The gentle call of God (or Buddhahood or Allah) nudges people upward toward the spiritual side. God urges us to drop the material garbage and evolve upward... toward spiritual enlightenment.
Many people (and many religions) mistakenly view sex entirely from a material perspective. Consequently, many people with high spiritual aspirations mistakenly believe that celibacy is essential for attaining enlightenment. And for those who have relatively little interest in sex, the path of celibacy is just fine. But for intensely sexual people, celibacy is a path to emotional distress rather than joy.
The truth is that sex can be practiced in any part of the spectrum. On one extreme is sexual violence and rape. On the opposite extreme is sacred sex, which is the sexual worship of God (or sexual celebration of the Buddha Nature).
So.... What do I mean by "Goddess"?
"Goddess" means a woman who is blossoming in many qualities of spiritual enlightenment AND is intensely sexual.
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Ancient Egyptian Goddess Isis
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Hindu Goddess Laxmi
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Christian Goddess Mary Magdalene
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3. Extensive Qualifications for the Goddess I Seek:
My intention here is twofold. First, I want to clearly describe the woman I am seeking. She need NOT meet 100% of my qualifications, but she meets MOST of them. Second, I would like to inspire EVERY woman who reads this message to become and be the very best woman she can be, regardless of whether she responds.
3.1. Spirituality:
Her spirituality is the CENTER of her life.
She believes in God, loves God, knows that God loves her, and knows that she herself is made in God's image (i.e. that she is an incarnation of God, or that the Buddha within her is the totality of the universe). She knows that the location where God resides is within her beautiful heart.
She receives guidance directly from God, and she follows this Spirit guidance, even when it takes courage to do so (e.g. because others might get angry or think she's nuts).
She prays daily. She prays for other people as she is guided by God to pray, knowing her Spirit-guided prayer will result in the highest outcome for them.
She knows the truth of reincarnation. Alternatively, she is open to the concept and ready for experiences that will demonstrate its truth to her.
She engages in one or a combination of the following spiritual practices for a minimum of 15 minutes per day (or alternatively, for at least two hours per week), and she has been doing so regularly for several years:
Meditating in sitting position with eyes closed. (See, e.g., Sahaj Samadhi Meditation, Transcendental Meditation, Siddha Yoga Meditation, Meditation as taught by Ammaji (the hugging saint), and Kriya Yoga Meditation.)
Chanting an ancient mantra aloud, such as "Nam Myoho Renge Kyo" or "Om Namah Shivaya" or "Hare Krishna."
Breath techniques taught by Sri Sri Ravi Shankar, including Sudarshan Kriya.
I would prefer someone who spends more like 1 or 2 hours per day on such practices (as I have been doing for 35 years), and I think 15 minutes is pretty minimal for a Goddess. The above-listed practices dig deep into the consciousness, clean out fear, anger, pain, hatred and other negatives, including from past lives, open the heart to blossom in unconditional love, dissolve the ego, and move the soul rapidly in the direction of spiritual enlightenment.
The following do NOT count towards my 15-minute-per-day minimum because, although they can have great value (especially when done in conjunction with the above-listed practices), they generally do not dig nearly as deep into the consciousness: reading scriptures (e.g. the Bible), spiritual books or spiritual articles; attendance at church, temple, mosque, study groups, religious meetings or spiritual lectures (or listening to recordings of the same); listening to or singing sacred music; yoga postures (asanas); physical exercise; charitable work (seva); dietary cleansing; "talk therapy," chiropractic, homeopathy, naturopathy, ayurveda, acupuncture, massage, psychic surgery, light healing, astrology or feng shui.
She is NOT a Scientologist.
She is NOT a fan of Reverend Michael Beckwith. Did you see the 2006 film, The Secret? It features Reverend Michael Beckwith, the founder and presiding minister of the Agape International Spiritual Center (Agape Church). My E-Book reveals the profound hypocrisy and outright evil of Beckwith and his Agape colleagues.
As a consequence of her regular spiritual practices (both in this lifetime and in past lives), she is blossoming in the following qualities of enlightenment, perhaps not entirely, but to a significant extent:
Her mind is frequently peaceful.
She does not have too many unwelcome thoughts, nor does she experience a lot of "mental chatter"—her mind is fairly quiet... for some of the time, anyway.
When she gets angry or hurt or sad or upset, it does not last too long.... or, if it is lasting, she turns inward and works on herself until she finds peace again.
She seldom or never feels hatred or jealousy or the desire to harm someone.
She never feels greed.
She sees God (or Buddha or Jesus or Mary or Krishna or Radha or Allah) in many people.... or in all people.... even when they are denying their own divinity by engaging in evil.
She loves others unconditionally, meaning that even if they impose a "condition" of rejecting or betraying or harming her, she keeps loving them anyway.... her mature love cannot sour into hatred.
She unconditionally loves a large number of people.... or all people.... however, she loves different people with different levels of intensity.
She has the quality of childlike innocence. Alternatively, if she "lost" her innocence at some time in her life, she has subsequently regained it. (One meaning of "Om Namaha Shivaya," the most ancient of all the great Sanskrit mantras, is, "I return to innocence.")
3.2. Body:
She is extremely attractive (as are all eleven spiritual Goddesses shown in the above images, at least in my opinion). She turns heads wherever she goes.
She's hot and sexy.... VERY sexy (as are all eleven Goddesses above, in my opinion).
She is beautifully dressed and beautifully groomed.
She has excellent posture.
She has a trim waistline (as do all eleven Goddesses above). Alternatively, if her waistline is ALMOST (but not quite) trim, she is willing to trim it down and keep it trim. No exceptions.
Her hair is her own and at least TO HER SHOULDERS (all eleven Goddesses above have long hair). Alternatively, she is willing to grow her hair long and keep it long. No exceptions.
Her voice is not low or raspy. (About 95% of women meet this requirement. Musically speaking, female voices are soprano, mezzo-soprano, and alto; male voices are tenor, baritone and bass. Alto is okay for my Goddess, but baritone and bass are not.)
She is in excellent health, although she may have some minor health issues she is working on.
She is tobacco free and drug free. She is either alcohol free or nearly so.
She is either a vegetarian, or she would like to be one if she could do so without it adversely impacting her energy or health.
Her home is clean, orderly and uncluttered. However, if she has small children living with her, messes caused by her kids are okay.
3.3. Mind:
She is mentally healthy, and her mental health is strongly supported by her spiritual practices. (No psychiatry. No mental disorders. No psych meds.) Note: feeling some unhappiness because she has not yet been united with the man she desires is NOT a mental disorder!
She is extremely intelligent and creative.
She is well educated, with at least a bachelor's degree. Alternatively, she has the intellectual/academic ability, skills and experience of someone with a bachelor's degree.
She is highly articulate.
She speaks English with advanced fluency.
She is BRAVE.
She is ready and willing to confront and let go of any and all self-limiting beliefs within her consciousness. She knows that breaking out of the "cage" of self-limiting beliefs can be difficult and sometimes painful, but she is undaunted. She wants TOTAL FREEDOM and has the courage to attain it. She wants a man who will HELP her attain it.
She has an open/flexible mind capable of embracing beautiful/powerful new concepts, both material and spiritual, that are "outside the box" of common thinking in today's heavily propagandized and "politically correct" society. She is open to revolutionary new ideas for improving our society. She enjoys conversations about such things.
She has read my entire E-Book. She understands the juicy twist in the relationship I seek, and she totally LOVES it!
3.4. Social:
She is single and available for dating and intimacy.
She is sophisticated.
She has excellent manners.
She is RELIABLE about phone calls and dates with me.
She LOVES classical music, including opera and ballet. She wants me to take her to LA Opera productions at the Dorothy Chandler Pavilion, to the LA Philharmonic concerts at Disney Hall, to the Hollywood Bowl (with picnic dinners), to Broadway musicals at the Ahmanson Theater and in Hollywood's Theater District, to concerts and theater at the Orange County Performing Arts Center, to art exhibitions, and to other classy arts events. She totally LOVES the idea of my taking her directly from these events to elegant hotels for enchanting, romantic, sizzling-hot nights!
She is interested in couples dancing, including Swing, Salsa, Waltz and Fox Trot. (I'm okay at East Coast Swing, but I need a lot more lessons on all the dances! Taking dance lessons would be a GREAT thing to do together.)
She is confident, outgoing, and has excellent people skills. She is socially magnetic, gregarious, and people LOVE being with her.
If she has been victimized by an ex-boyfriend or ex-husband who has been severely emotionally abusive, engaged violence or other crimes against her or other people, and/or abuses alcohol or drugs, then she must be 100% disconnected from him except for minimal contacts required to comply with a court order pursuant to children or financial support.
3.5. Work/Vision:
She is deeply disturbed that each day approximately 16,000 children die from hunger-related causes... one such child dies every six seconds. She understands that the biggest problem in the world today (and the underlying cause of this and a myriad of other horrendous problems) is tyranny by a small band of elite individuals. Or, if she doesn't understand this yet, she is willing to educate herself about this very scary truth.
She QUESTIONS so-called "authority" and HATES the concept of "blind obedience to authority." She is appalled by the results of the famous Milgram Experiment in psychology which show that "normal" people will intentionally inflict what they believe is torture on another person simply because an "authority" figure instructed them to do so.
She understands that the elite tyrants have reached an advanced state in the systematic imposition of their so-called "authority" onto the population of the entire world, and that the goal of the tyrants is nothing short of enslaving the masses by means of (1) the "authority" of government officials who are puppets of the tyrants, and (2) marketplace and media domination by corporate giants that are primarily controlled by the tyrants. Since the Civil War, most U.S. Presidents and Vice Presidents, and most members of Congress, have been puppets—both major political parties in the U.S. are controlled by the tyrants. Mr. Obama is probably the smoothest, most "convincing" puppet they have yet installed into the White House (the liberals got massively hypnotized and duped).... but if you look carefully you can see Obama's subtly camouflaged marionette strings. VERY scary. (Five of my African-American friends—three women and two men—agree with me on this.)
She has the COURAGE to unite with and give her full Goddess support to a powerful man (me) who dares to believe that tyranny can be eliminated from the face of this earth during our lifetime.
She is either an experienced actress or would like to be one. She is deeply interested in theater, film and television production, but is unhappy with the manner in which the media are controlled by the dark powers that substantially control the world today. She would be EXTREMELY interested in participating in creating an extraordinary new television show designed to change all that and that will be distributed in a manner that the tyrants cannot touch.
If she is presently engaged in unfolding her own vision through her own work, then she understands that I am NOT intending to pull her away from it. Indeed, I wish to support and enhance her work/vision and hope that she might be willing to find a practical way to integrate it with mine, thereby making it OUR Global Vision.
As our success unfolds, she will be willing to travel the world with me, to appear on television with me, and to work with me—sometimes together, sometimes separately—on a large number of projects in a diversity of fields that will reduce human suffering.
3.6. Sexuality:
She is PASSIONATE. Actually, she is INTENSELY passionate.... passionate about God, passionate about eliminating social injustice, passionate when speaking to audiences or on television, and passionate in bed with me.
She believes in the light-filled MAGIC of sacred sex. She wants to utilize this magic to manifest our Global Vision. She realizes that her sacred sexual union with me is crucial for manifesting the Global Vision.
She is VERY open-minded sexually, and she is free from all physical and emotional impediments to the complete expression of her sexuality.
If she has been a prostitute, that is GOOD!! We can discuss it at length. I have partially written a book entitled, Resurrecting the Innocence in Prostitutes (it is not in the Trilogy I am writing). Fascinating topic! Sacred Prostitution is an important part of my Global Vision.
She intensely longs to be worshiped as a Goddess by the right man... a man who knows EXACTLY what he is doing. He teases her hard and relentlessly, which makes her laugh uncontrollably. The sound of his voice, his words, his appearance, the way he looks at her, his powerful mind, his radiant heart, his intense sexuality, his confidence, his poise, and his very presence.... weaken her knees, fill her stomach with butterflies, send shivers up her spine, make her heart pound, overwhelm her with desire, and make her VERY wet. She cannot help but surrender herself to him, melting naked into his arms, whereupon he worships her as a Goddess.... he is the priest, she is his altar. She becomes the Goddess he is worshiping... she is elevated into extreme Goddess-ecstasy.... exploding and screaming!.... so many times you lose count.
The lady I seek somehow KNOWS deep down inside that if she surrenders herself to the right man and is worshiped by him as a Goddess in just the right way, she can move mountains.... she can move the whole world! She WANTS to make this sexual magic happen and to bless the world with the resulting miracles.
Note: I have no desire to control my Goddess. Please see my discussion in Section 6 below about Surrender versus Control.
Furthermore, she is potentially interested in sacredly exploring FEMALE bisexuality as a Goddess, so that, by my simultaneously worshiping multiple Goddesses, we can greatly intensify the power of our sexual magic, thereby accelerating the manifestation of our Global Vision.
She is WILLING to surrender and be worshiped as a Goddess.
She is WANTING to surrender and be worshiped as a Goddess.
She is WAITING to surrender and be worshiped as a Goddess.
December 2009
4. About Me:
Gallant. INTENSELY romantic. Perfect gentleman.
Flamboyant!
6-1, 185, 58. Deep, sexy voice (women LOVE my voice).
Extremely brilliant. Extremely creative. Well educated. Renaissance Man. Wise.
Happy, and able to remain happy even in the midst of stressful circumstances and disappointments. My happiness is infectious!
Hundreds of friends.
Divorced after 17-year marriage. I have three fabulous adult sons and golden relationships with each of them. At the time of my divorce, they were 14, 11 and 8, and thereafter I raised them as a single dad with very little help from their mother. The oldest and youngest now work full-time with me developing my computer technology. My middle son is working on his MBA at one of the top business schools—he is married to my fabulous daughter-in-law. No grandchildren yet.
Born in Downtown Los Angeles. Raised in Pacific Palisades (part of Los Angeles). My first guru was an incredible high school physics teacher who loved me unconditionally and taught me about the greatness of my own mind and heart (I also mastered the physics, but that was merely a vehicle for these larger lessons). He inspired me to teach. Supported myself in high school and college by tutoring mathematics, physics and chemistry, and developed highly effective teaching methods, which I later successfully applied to classroom teaching.
Graduated magna cum laude from UCLA. B.A. in Mathematics, minor in Music, plus a Teaching Credential. Also took extensive coursework in physics, chemistry, theater arts, education and business management.
While in college, created and ran a business taking high school students on backpacking trips to Yosemite and to the Grand Canyon. (I am no longer interested in backpacking, but I do enjoy day hikes.)
Taught high school chemistry and mathematics for LA Unified Schools, and also twice started my own private schools. Students and their parents love me, but the powers that be in education do not. Had uniform (and unprecedented) success in high school geometry classes, within the first four hours of instruction from the first day of class, getting every student to do 10+ line proofs correctly... and they LOVE it. Many students told me learning to do proofs helped them in their English classes because it improved their writing skills. Duh! Spent a large portion of my life attempting to make my teaching methods available on a wide scale, but was obstructed by many factors (I will return to this in the future—it's a significant component of my plans for transforming education).
Volunteered in twelve semi-professional musical theater productions as set and lighting designer, technical director, chorus member and producer. Founded the YMCA-sponsored Los Angeles Young Artists Theater Company. Managed a large number of teen and adult volunteers (as many as 150 people at once). Negotiated deal with Musician's Union (Local 47) that enabled productions to have orchestras with both volunteer and paid musicians. Designed spectacular sets and lighting for Meredith Willson's The Music Man, for Richard Adler and Jerry Ross's The Pajama Game, and for Lionel Bart's Oliver!, and supervised construction and painting of all scenery for both (did the most difficult painting myself). Produced Rodgers and Hammerstein's Flower Drum Song at the Santa Monica Civic Auditorium.
Spent 13 years as a software engineer at Hughes Aircraft Company. Responsible for design, implementation, test and documentation of a software system to operate a newly built far-field range in Malibu for testing satellite antennas. Managed a team of programmers, installed the system on schedule, and it was successfully used to test massive antennas on satellites that are now in orbit. Responsible for the analysis portion of a data quality audit of the Hughes business data. Uncovered significant data problems. Left Hughes after raising startup capital for my computer technology venture.
Currently spend about 30 hours per week working with my sons on my computer technology and also on other aspects of my Global Vision.
Currently spend an additional 30 hours per week drafting complex legal documents for numerous attorney clients. I do this legal work in the capacity of a spiritual missionary for the purpose of spreading Light within the legal system (which desperately needs Light). I am not an attorney, but could readily pass the bar exam. This work pays the bills, pays for dates with ladies, and supports my sons as they work full time developing my computer technology.
I have a long list of friends, including many close friends who know most or all of my secrets. Among my close friends are several ex-girlfriends.
Deeply spiritual. Old soul. 35 years of daily meditation. 20 years of daily breath practices as taught by Sri Sri Ravi Shankar, who is my main spiritual teacher and mentor. Numerous other longtime advanced spiritual practices, including healing/resolving matters from several past lives. Nonjudgmental. Advanced skills at emotional processing. I rarely get angry (perhaps 3 times per year and just for a few minutes, then it's gone). Extremely patient. Emotionally centered and grounded. Happy. Calm. Spending time with me will calm you down and make you feel peaceful inside. But I will also challenge you to expand and grow. I will challenge you to let the Goddess within you be fully expressed and manifested in the external world.
Profound, two-way connection with God (or, as my Buddhist friends would say, with my Buddha Nature). I am guided by God in all that I do, day in and day out. Consequently, there is no need for me to make "choices." I just obey God, usually instantly. However, when God tells me to do things I am uncomfortable with doing or am afraid of doing, I sometimes "argue" with God.... but God always wins. Also, I frequently "test" my guidance in a variety of ways, to make sure it's coming from God (and not from my ego or from some other source). I have found (particularly over the past 15 years) that my Spirit guidance is remarkably pure and genuine, and I am grateful to Sri Sri Ravi Shankar for that. Jai Guru Dev! I have also found that in the most challenging situations my ego is the part of me that doubts what God tells me, and wants instead to believe with the "world" tells me. This sometimes causes distress in me, but I always obey God and live with the consequences, rather than obeying the "choice" my ego would make. Indeed, "choice" is extremely popular today. Many people believe making "choices" is empowering, which might be true for those who are struggling with addictions and other harmful behavior patterns. But ultimately, "choice" is thing of the ego (it's the ego's "crown jewel," actually), and I am grateful that I have no attraction to it. (Sri Sri Ravi Shankar says, "You think you have free will, but it's only an illusion.") Increasingly, my doubts are disappearing, and I know I am on the verge of truly emerging in my Full Power to move mountains on this planet.
Extremely passionate tantra master who does not ejaculate (except on rare occasions). Stay fully hard through multiple male orgasms without ejaculating. Can and will genuinely DELIVER "so many times you lose count," as stated above. Vasectomy (but I can have it reversed).
100% straight (i.e. heterosexual).
Tobacco free, alcohol free, drug free and disease free.
Clean, healthy, vegetarian (for over 30 years).
For daily exercise, I do yoga stretches, walk 2 miles per day, and I work out at a gym.
My home is clean and orderly, but I'm not very good at interior decorating!
I am intensely chivalrous, and, if you date me, you are required to respond to my chivalry as a LADY. You are the GIRL. Chivalry is about you allowing me to HONOR the girl in you. This means you let ME walk on the street side of the sidewalk, and you let ME open all doors for you (including when you are exiting from my car). It means you let ME decide where I would like to take you (e.g. what restaurant, what concert, what hotel, etc.), and when I tell you where I would like to take you, you tell me your FEELINGS with the understanding that if I sense that you are uncomfortable or disappointed with my offer, then I will change it because my goal is to make you HAPPY. It means that when I offer you flowers and gifts, you accept them graciously.... you should have empty vases in your home. It means that you let ME pay for everything on our dates, even if you have a lot more money than I do. It means if we are at a restaurant and I am hungry and you are busy talking, that when our food finally arrives you realize that YOU must take the first bite, and by ignoring your food as you keep yakking away you are making me starve!
Okay. So much for chivalry. Now I need to warn you that three extremely popular things are not a part of my life:
Rock Music. I dislike rock music. I came of age in the 1960s and never liked it. It saps my energy and turns me off.
Television. I don't watch television except for about 1-2 hours per year when circumstances require it. I stopped watching TV in 1970 and am unfamiliar with most post-1970 programming. I dislike the energy of most of what gets broadcast, and it is far worse now than it was in the 1960s (back when I watched a lot of TV). Television news broadcasts are largely propaganda. I have saved YEARS of time by avoiding TV. However, when we launch our own TV show (which will have very different energy), I will watch every episode.
Pets. I love all animals and they love me. Indeed, as a vegetarian, I am in no way responsible for their slaughter. I even catch indoor bugs and release them outdoors. But I'm not a pet person. Physical contact with animals (especially dogs) drains my energy.
But I'm funny! I will make you laugh... lots.
Sensitive, kind, caring and sweet.
High integrity.
Huge heart that loves unconditionally.
Extremely strong male energy but totally different from most men. Obviously!! I know EXACTLY what I want, and I intend to get it.
But vulnerable (e.g. I fall in love easily).
HEART OF GOLD.
